Let the Healing Begin.

I’m now letting the healing process start in my heart by actually standing firm on my decision to stop hoping. I finally found the closure I’ve been searching for since that sunny day of August 2016. This whole adventure I had with you made me follow and love Christ more and I will forever be grateful to you for leading me back to the basics. Thank you for being with me when I started walking my life with Christ. I guess it’s time we part ways.

I used to tell you everything. I used to tell you what I ate today, where I went, what I was doing during my free time, why I was laughing my heart out when you passed by me at the hallways, and all the petty matters of my everyday life. From the simplest things to the deepest thoughts of my soul, you used to know all of those.

But things are different now.

Maybe some time in the future we’ll see each other again and maybe we will or we will not fall back together. As for me, of course I’d prefer the former. But I don’t know what the future holds for the both of us. It is something only God knows and something that we’ll never have the luxury of knowing, at least for now. What I can do is hope and trust God that He will never fail me. I’ll always be praying for you, that you find your heart’s joy and happiness the way I found mine in you. I’ll always be praying that you get the best. And if that wouldn’t be me, I’d still be glad in knowing that God’s plan for you has finally come true.

I will always be grateful for the short while you’ve changed my life. I know that you have never loved me back and you don’t think of me as anything other than a friend and a sister. So I’m finally giving you what you’ve always wanted: and it is freedom from my kakulitan and random spouts of conversations. Still, I will always be here for you.

You are the one who led me to know Christ and I can never show how much I am grateful for that. God, fate, and you have already intervened so I have decided to just love you in the best way that I know. And that is to always pray for you. I will never get tired and I will never give up. Because you deserve all the best this world has to offer.

Tonight, I’m finally letting go and giving God everything.

And now I wait.

“The Lord is my portion. Therefore I will wait for Him.” – Lamentations 3:24